The Yoga journey is still on

If you have been reading this blog, it has been going all over the place.. to July 2024, then finally to other things.. There are a few things that don’t get mentioned which are reasons for all the anachronistic posts.

Last summer San and me knew there was a 9 day anniversary trip. Still we had signed up for a 60 day challenge. T-shirts make you do things I guess! For me it was a no brainer. The earlier two week trip in February had made me skip signing up for the Winter 2024 challenge. I haven’t missed a winter challenge in years! So the family knew I will sign up for the summer challenge. Given a 10 day miss for travel, we started doing doubles every day in the hot July summer. The first 22 days saw us do 44 classes.. mostly back to back. San had never done doubles before, so I was really impressed and proud of her effort. Then we went on the trip and came back to finish the challenge ahead of time. It was good we finished it ahead.

Just two days before the challenge end date, my mother called me to show my dad in Apollo ICU in Chennai. The prognosis was that he would’t make it by the time I left here and reached him. It was a timely call as I was booked for a business trip first thing the next morning. Cancelled that trip and flew to India.

By some miracle, my dad went from ICU to general ward and back home in the week I spent there. The doctor’s told me that at this point, his condition is expected to be the same for weeks or months. He was home though. My mom was relieved that he was home. Even though the room became a hospital room, he had pulled through. So with happy tears I flew back. Right after coming back we did attend the 60 day challenge party. It was a great way for me to take my mind off everything. Went right back to the regular yoga routine. I was even more determined and sure that if I did this yoga regularly, there might be a quick and painless death instead of a prolonged debilitating disease. No one knows what is going to happen or when, but one can always do some preventive maintenance.

There was no blog posts .. not just about yoga.. There was simply no mood to write anything for the rest of September and most of October till my dad stabilzed to a new routine. Then we had a planned trip to the grand canyon to hike the south rim and that brought me back to Facebook , blogging and a social routine.

Went back searching for the videos of my speech from that challenge but could only find these two pics.. (one done before my dad ended up in hospital) and another from the challenge party. That was my 15th successful challenge out of 17 attempts.

Then it was January again before we knew it. This time my MIL had informed me that she will visit us from Jan to March just to join me for the 60 day challenge. She wanted to do another challenge (having done it once). The two of us had signed up and I signed up San, given she joins me most days. Initially she was hesitant and did not want to do it. She did not even do the stickers to keep track (I was keeping track for her). When there were only 10 days left and she had to do just a few doubles, she got enticed by Michele to complete. The T-shirts were back! They had the right size too apparently! All three of us finished this challenge.

My goal for this challenge was to do a 1000 classes in trying 60 day challenges. Had already done 900 in the 15 good attempts and in the two failed attempts there was another 93. So by class 7, the goal was done. Still the challenge teaches us something about how to carry on when your brain goes on strike and how to overcome adversity.

We did go to the challenge party this time and got to share the experience. You can see the video highlights reel..

One more T-shirt got added to replace the worn out ones..

After three weeks of not being able to go do Yoga much because of nosebleeds, finally made it last two days. Plan to get back to going everyday. Yoga makes me happy and peaceful. It is a reflective time and a meditative time to let go of things that don’t serve me right. It is a great way to reset.

That said, every day, learn something new. Even this morning in class Michelle tells me “Sundar, nothing should happen with the standing leg. just move the hands and the other leg!”. This was while doing a balancing stick pose where I was instinctively rolling forward on my ankle to compensate for the imbalance. Not doing that made all the difference in the second set. Have to remember that in tomorrows class. As we form good habits, bad habits have a way of creeping up as well. Constant attention to detail with a watchful set of teachers helps me fix them over and over again. To all my teachers at BYSJ, especially Michele, Matt and Sarah, who by now know my every move and even pre-emptively correct me , a heartfelt and sincere thank you!

Thank god for teachers!

The best part of this challenge was doing it with my wife and MIL. Hopefully someday, the kids will do a 60 day challenge. One can always hope.. and screw Parkinson’s disease.. Hope they find a cure for this shit so in case I do end up with it, there is some relief. Even if I cannot avoid the physical eventuality, the Yoga practice will definitely help me handle anything mentally down the road. That much I am sure of!

A dozen 60 day challenges

This year yet again, the following sequence of events happened..

1. BYSJ announced the 60 day yoga challenge to start Jan 1st-Jan 14th (start within that window and finish 60 classes in 60 days)

2. Started on Jan 1st, and having gone to class everyday till 6th, signed up 

3. Wife and resident kid protested at first

4. Then realized that once I sign up for something, it is not easy to unsign me for anything

5. Negotiations were done as part of letting me go through the challenge

Go through this routine the first week of January as though it is some kind of WTO or Davos type event, without the private helicopters and fancy locations..

An agreement was reached. I was not to skip any of the all day hikes planned for Jan/Feb and will do doubles to make up, but it will kept to a minimum number of days.

The questions this year were :

You have done this so many times already. you are doing yoga practically every day, so why bother with this challenge?

It is not like you are going to learn anything new after all these years? You better know everything if you have been doing it this long, so just go reguarly but skip this challenge!

First question sounds logical. the second one, oh... that gave me an opening to launch into Sundar's yoga memorial lecture. On any day, I learn something new in yoga class, either about myself on a general basis, myself specific to that day, yoga in general, or something specific about a particular asana. It is a never endiing, continous process. 

Finished the challenge with 4 doubles. There were 4 all day hikes and some of them 10-12 miles with a lot of elevation gain. If there were 6:30 PM classes on Saturday, would have still dragged my ass to Yoga class after those hikes and avoided the doubles.  It was more of a time thing than a capability issue. It was a great feeling to finish. 

The 60 day challenge helps me take any new learning and make a habit out of it. When you learn something new about a part of your body, or a pose or how to adjust to do the pose better, it is important to keep repeating that, at least 10-12 days in a row, for it to stick to your brain so you do it without thinking about it as a "correction".  

It is like remembering Chennai phone numbers when they suddenly added an extra number in front of the 7 digit numbers. You have to think of the original number, add the extra number in front before dialing.. that takes mental bandwidth and slows you down.. it takes a few years of dialing before you don't have to process through those steps and the 7 digit numbers have been overwritten in the head directly with 8 digit numbers. There is no quick "Find all" , "replace all" for my brain! Maybe I am alone in this..

Yoga is like that for me. Have gone to class 2500+ times. Most of the poses are two sets per class. So if you have tried something 5000+ times over 11+ years and they have all gone through multiple sets of corrections, there has to be a faster way to make these updates stick. 

A friend and teacher, Matt told me recently when I quoted "Practice makes perfect!", with "Sundar, you get good at whatever you practice! You practice something that makes it better, you will get better. You practice something  that makes it worse, you WILL get better at making it worse!"

I just was zapped thinking about it. Bad habits are as easy to form, if you work hard! We should scrap that stupid proverb and replace it with "You perfect what you practice!". 

The 60 day challenge is the perfect opportunity to make process improvements (yoga is a process) into habits. Made 4 improvements in this challenge. Two were just undoing bad things that had crept up over time (this happens, don't know why!) and two were new learnings. 

San also signed up for the challenge with me, just to see how far she goes. She did 45/60 and was happy for her. There were two days where the little one was not well or wanted company and they both let me go to yoga. For that and for all the support, silent eye rolling instead of open rebellion, I am grateful to both of them!

Ironically, we had to wear a mask till the last day of the challenge and the very next day, the county declared masks were optional! Did all the 60 classes in the studio, in full heat and humidity, with a mask and without a water bottle.

If you are one of those folks who think it is difficult to do the hot yoga with a mask, do it back to back every day, have worries about having to remove masks to drink water etc.. all of those can be overcome.  That WAS going to be my message.. but now that the mask mandate is gone, just come do yoga!

It has been 4 years since I drank water during a yoga class. One of those things that has become a habit. Has definitely helped minimize stomach bloating during class and compress my stomach a lot more during forward bends. The first 3 days was hard.. then you count day 10, day 100, a year, two years and after some time, just get used to it and when you cross that day on calendar, smile and keep moving. This year I didn't even notice my "no water anniversary" till a few days later. That is when I know, it is time to stop counting for that one!

Have another thing to share that was funny and profound that happened during this challenge. Before a class, we were chatting with a few newcomers. They tell me "You do a great job in the front row. You must be naturally flexible!". Both me and San were smiling after hearing that.  

When I was new to Yoga, used to think that everyone else in that room was naturally flexible and was born with some genes that I lacked for sure. My first class I bent down to try touch my toes and my hands went an inch past my knees. Fast forward 12 years, someone thinks that I am naturally flexible!  

That shows, practiced skill can give the same perception as natural talent. It takes a long long time, but eventually you can get to a certain level of skill with practice. I am planning to do that with music. It doesn't matter if I have any music genes or not.. just going to keep at it and see after a dozen years, what happens. Music and yoga are different.. and I don't know the relative time scales, but going to give it a shot! When the family reads this, their eyes might just roll off the socket.. oh well!

Got another T-shirt this year at the challenge party, to replace the one that is almost dropping off my shoulder from all that washing. Very happy with it.  

Made a lot of new friends this year as well. While I was not fortunate to become a yoga teacher, definitely happy to be a longtime student. If you are one of those people who is curious about trying hot yoga, do reach out. There is plenty of posts in this blog that have explained my journey and experiences over the years and will be glad to share it in person. 

Now, we have until next Jan to negotiate a challenge! You have to keep the benchmarks going.. told my family, it would be good to do a 1000 classes, just in 60 day challenges (that is 17 challenges). So if that goal is accepted, the next 5 are spoken for!

See, simple!

Same Same but Different

Every year, Bikram Yoga San Jose has a 60 day Challenge that starts in January. This year, I got into the Challenge reluctantly, knowing that there were three possible Asia trips in those 60 days. 

The teachers said "sign up and see how far you go. you never know". Well, they know me, alright! Once they put my name on that board (twice), it was not going to be easy to give up on the challenge. 

It was a torment. I would come back from a trip and look at my star stickers trailing behind the rest of the stars and "sigh" audibly before entering the class. My biggest challenge was accepting the possibility that I might not do 60 classes in 60 days. 

With a lot of encouragement from San and the kids as well as the teachers, and a lot of doubles (do two classes in one day, sometimes back to back) the stars all added up to 60! Finished the challenge and was off to catch a 12 hour flight. 

Given my sanity is constantly tested by a workload that fluctuates by the hour, working across multiple timezones to a point where I am constantly awake, the yoga has definitely helped me from going postal. 

This is not my first challenge. It is my third (fourth if you count the fact that MIL and me did 91 classses in our first 100 days of starting Bikram Yoga in 2011.. back then we did not know much about this Challenge).

Have written about this experience in 2013 and 2014. Went back to the blog and was missing the 2015 post. Looks like I did the usual graphs and charts, wrote about it and never hit the Publish button, thanks to fighting strange rashes that come with frequent travel?! right after the Challenge.

People call me a "technologist".. I am turning into a "technoyogist". What kind of technoyogi does a post on Yoga that involves counting to 60, without graphs and charts?! 

That kind of sums up the whole challenge. It was not steady progress like the previous two years. It was stop and go. Practiced 6 times between leaving work on Friday to coming back on Monday. My original thought was that I would be dead before Monday morning, but reality was something else. Went to work and felt great. So the number of classes you do over a weekend doesn't matter, as long as you hydrate and rest properly. Zico coconut water was and is my best friend now. If some day, I put a bar in the house for some strange reason, it will only have Zico on tap. 

Then came the surprise after the Challenge. Picked up some strange rash and most of March was a wash with work, with family and Yoga. My extended family often challenged me with things like "you do all this yoga and still get sick. maybe it is the yoga!" .. friends were talking about "yoga overdose".. and once the jokes and jibes start, the hits just keep on coming.

Doing yoga does not make you invincible. It helps you optimize your strength vs. flexibilty, makes sure your hormone glands are all firing right, and helps with your immunity so your body can fight things better. My auto immune disorder and allergies are known to everyone close to me. You bring me close to a range of things like dogs,  cats, sesame seeds, peanuts, chinese juniper, shellfish (and a long list of things) and I can go from normal to strugling in a few seconds. My body probably did a better job fighting the rash, thanks to Yoga. 

Can I prove it? No. Can I disprove it? again, No.  The Yogis in the Himalayas had a much better deal than me, because they didn't have to share recirculated air in a tin can with 400 people for 12-14 hours on a regular basis.  This was like wearing a bullet proof vest and walking into a war zone. Chances are you still get shot in the face. 

The same thing applies to the sudden outburst of emotion when I am on a call and one of my kids screams in the background. Just because you do Yoga, doesn't mean you become a stoic overnight or you become a stoic ever. There is nothing wrong with going from zero to angry in 4 seconds. What is important is how long does it take you to come from Angry to zero? if you can do it in three deep breaths with 6 seconds in and 6 seconds out (24 seconds) you got me beat. That is my bench mark today. It takes me 24 seconds (20 sometimes) to calm down from anything. That is all thanks to Yoga.

The weight tracking after every yoga class is still on. Somehow I have either put on a good 10 pounds between July to December of 2014 or the battery change in the weighing scale has reset the calibration! Will post this graph at the end of 2015 and see what it shows. Right now the weight is more or less steady at 145 +/- 2 lbs. 

Why do this Challenge at all?

Is it to feed the type A personality trait?

Is it some kind of death wish?

Is there any difference that I noticed after the 2nd and 3rd challenge ?

What did I gain by doing this?  

Did I even enjoy doing this?

Those were the most common questions I got in water cooler conversations or at kids birthday parties when the guys or ladies are talking about my Yoga experience.

So here are some answers.

The first time I did the challenge, it was purely a "type A" thing. No shame in admitting it. Everyone at the studio was going "ooh" and "aah" about how great this experience was and someone mentioned that this is "not easy" and "not everyone can do it". Well, "I am not everyone" was the theme in my life at that time.. (okay, it is a repeating theme) and we went. (we = me and my mother in law, who is a type A+ personality, who encouraged me to do it. As my only "local parent", she did the right thing and I am forever grateful to her for doing that).

When the challenge was done though, it was a humbling experience, not a power trip. It put a lot of things in perspective. One can accomplish a lot at work and home, but how far can you push your body, within a two feet by six feet space, that we call a yoga mat? Once you do the same thing regularly and continuously, your body kind of starts remembering things and you start seeing changes. I always thought this concept of "muscle memory" was a bunch of bull. I was wrong! My abs never looked better than after that 60 days. 

The second time, I signed up, because January to March is Flu season here. The previous year, I had successfully managed to evade the flu, in spite of everyone in the house having it. Thought of the Challenge as a flu beater and it did help. My work was crazy in 2014 and at the time and the challenge kept me sane.

This time the learning was different. No two challenges are alike. Different year, different set of issues that have to be overcome. Also realized that poses that were not favorites the previous year, became my "look forward to" poses in the next year and vice versa.  It just shows how your body changes over time. At the end of this challenge I really wanted to ask my teacher if she will write me a recommendation for teacher training. My family and collegues nicely reminded me of my commitments, and I put that wish in the "after this job is done" list.

This year, it was probably a type A thing as well. I was fighting with myself and I won. Could not accept the thought of not finishing after signing up. Do not know if that is a good or bad thing. Sometimes I do not like the me, that stares back from the mirror. Do not understand why it is acceptance of that person that I seek, instead of a determined fight to change that person. Maybe that is the first step to eventually changing?

If you have done the challenge multiple times, the biggest changes you will see, are with your breath and your thought process. The poses are not going to magically improve because you do the challenge. Not in depth anyways. Your form will improve but that is something I have learnt to cherish only after many a teacher has knocked it into my pig head that "form is more important than depth". Even today, the teacher told us "going 90 miles per hour into a ditch is not the goal here. Going straight and steady at 35 miles per hour will still get you places".

If you are doing this challenge for the 2nd or 3rd or n-th time, chances are, you are a regular, and every day is a challenge for you. Still, you get to literally see your body change radically over a two month timeframe. Your core strength improves by orders of magnitude!

However, if you have just started on this journey, it is quite a treat to go through this experience. You WILL see changes with your body and your mind. 

The last question always puts a smile on my face. Do you enjoy doing this? That is a tough one. In all honesty, every class, no matter weather the starting state was one of euphoria or depresssion, ends the same way. I come out singing inside my hear in Gloria Gaynor's voice "and I .. I will survive.. and I survived that 90 minutes of fighting, with my body and my mind".

Not sure if anyone in that room actually "enjoys" it while the class is going on. Mostly folks stare at themselves with a frustrated, constipated or angry face except when the teachers crack a joke or remind people to smile. There are three ladies who are an exception to this. They always have a smile on their face. Either they are seasoned pro's, or air hostesses who cannot undo their smiles. Those are my theories.

Every Yoga class is like making mysore pak for me.  It takes forever to make it and you sweat it out in the kitchen, standing in front of a hot stove, but when you taste the sweet after it is done, it was all worth the effort! Walking back to the car after class, looking up at the sky, smelling the cold air (it is usually cold compared to the hot room) and driving back in silence knowing you are better off today than yesterday, always makes the hard work in the class, worth it.

Definitely recommend trying a Challenge. There is a good chance that you will surprise yourself with what you find out about your own abilities!