health

From point to hill to peak to mountain

There is a progression of heights..

We start with a point like Hunter’s point which we can see from our street corner. Then a little taller is a hill, like Nob hill close to our house. Then it goes up to Peak. Maisie's peak is the tallest point in our local preserve at close to 1200 feet. Then there are mountains…

Black mountain which we frequent here but is called a mountain because it is close to 3000 feet but a radio tower makes it cross that limit (or so I heard).. then bay area grand slam for hikers.. Mt. Tamalpais, Diablo, Hamilton and Umunhum.. which were all done at some point..

It has been 4 months almost since there was a walk in the clouds with a view.

Given the holiday today, we had decided to try Hunter’s point or Maisies peak with the group. Everyone cheered me on as I made my way up one step at a time. On the way down I was 5 mintues behind and my buddy Prasad was Mr. Patience and gave me company. He was walking zig zag the entire time to keep his feet moving while I was stepping through it.

Have missed this for so long! Made my way to Yoga later in the afternoon and enjoyed that as well. The good news is my knee is still holding up after all the activity today.

Pinching myself !

Here are a few photos and a video highlight reel..

it is going to be slow progress but today was motivational enough to keep taking the slow and steady approach!

Next I need to see some beaches and waterfalls and all will be well!

What is "normal" ?

If you read this blog, you will know that I tore my right knee and have been recovering slowly for the last 4 months!

Intiially was just upset that I could not do every pose I am used to in Yoga class. Did try three classes in the last 40 days but every time I would push myself a little too hard and come home and go back to icing and set myself back. It was not the yoga. It was me not doing what I was told which was “listen to your body”. This happens to me even after a two week break from an India trip. I come back and see that my flexibility is not what is was two weeks ago and the first class back is a disappointment. Thought this was the same thing. It was not. The MRI showed a cartilage tear.

I weigh a 154 lbs. That means most of it is on my knees and ankles. 1/2 of it should go through my right knee at any point while standing and the entire weight when it is on one leg. When starting physiotherapy, was asked to have my feet flat against a plate and leg press 40 lbs and that made me cry.!

That surprised me given I stand and walk okay for 30-40 minute stretches without pain. Then it was explained to me that there is one weak point in my knee and if I stand walk or drive, I avoid putting pressure on that point by moving my weight to the outer part of my knee and feet. But even a small weight on the weak spot is enough to create intense pain.

Maybe all those years of ballroom dancing made me practice that weight distribtuion.. My dance teacher used to say ballroom folks have tendency to put weight on the outside of their feet while figure skaters put the weight on the inside of their feet. The dancing days are long gone but maybe it is a habit. Also have a tendency to walk with my leg like a V rather than a H and that was to be corrected slowly to help improve.

Week after week, slowly doing stationary cycling, leg pressing from 40 lbs to now 180 lbs with the leg flat, sitting on an imaginary chair with the back to the wall for 30 seconds at a stretch and doing that 30 times with breaks, clamshell exercises, walking and driving with a special knee brace etc., the leg is now slowly coming back to “normal”. Climbing stairs and driving still aggravate it, but there is no more swelling of the knee. No more stiffness that needs post care. I am also able to climb stairs and drive by using muscles all the way from my waist down to my ankle instead of sinking my weight on my knee all the time. Looks like the only time I was doing that before was in Yoga class when standing on one leg! Now I have to do that all the time.

My physio told me “for 98% of the people, what you have is more than normal”. Keep doing what I have taught you and come back end of November. The guy has grown on me. Initially I used to hate him for torturing me. He is a big man and he “puts my leg in some positions” even if I didn’t want them bent that way but he knew what he was doing. His promise to me was “you will go back to doing yoga in a few weeks once your leg is strong enough around that knee and you learn to redistribute your weight the right way consciously”. He also told me I was very flexible but not strong. He said “you have toned muscles but not enough muscle on either side of that knee”. Have been working on it for two months now. The whole of last week I walked and drove without the knee brace.

Today was a blessing with a holiday in the middle of the week. Went back to yoga after a long long break.

Talked to my teachers and told them that today was going to be the real deal.

“Start from scratch once again!” just like it says above the double doors we walk through every day at BYSJ.

Practiced yoga where I was not “taking it easy” but rather “moving gracefully with whatever I could do” just like the teacher adviced me before class. It was a fresh start with a new perspective. Came out feeling great physically and mentally.

Felt good to be back. Did all but three poses where I just stood there internalizing the dialogue for what I was supposed to do.. The right knee is still not ready to do a lateral bend. That is still a challenge while doing Tharpanam (realized that Sunday). Sit cross legged on the ground for an hour and cannot get up without help from someone. I would sit down and get up without using my hands before this tear. When I can sit down cross legged AND get back up without using my hands, that would be “normal’. Told my physio the first time I met that doing a toe stand was normal for me and showed him a photo.. and he just shook his head. “you can’t leg press 40 lbs and you want to go back to a toe stand ? and do Bruce Lee stuff!” .

Believe with all my heart that I will do a toe stand soon and maybe better that that one where my right knee is not low enough and my hands are not right. Hopefully by Jan 1st. Just have to work slowly every day and do Yoga and keep doing the squats and leg press business and bend that knee ever so slowly to the side a few millimeters a day.

The real yoga begins now!

If ever I am in a coma fighting for me life at any point, just drag my ass in that hospital bed by wheeling it into that hot room and let me listen to a teacher saying the dialogue. Thinking of doing yoga in my head is sometimes enough to revive me. At least that is what I feel.

Feel great just writing this post.

I am baaaack!!

ps. I weighed 154 when starting physio. Now I weight 163. That tyre around my waist has to disappear soon. The Deepavali savories are not helping. Think 20 grams of Badam Halwa become 40 grams of fat around my waist.

Satyavan-Savitri, Nala-Damayanthi, Sundar-Sangeetha - experiences may vary

If you are not familiar with the stories of Savitri or Damayanthi from the Mahabharata, the short summary is that these are women who went to extraordinary lengths to save their husbands!

Savitri had to go head to head with the god of death, Yama himself, to get her hubby back.

Fast forward to the present day and you have a slightly different version in the Sundar-Sangeetha story. Nope, no debating the god of death, but rather teasing him by dangling the husband like a carrot and going “hi Yama, come see if you can get him! See, I am almost letting you have him!” . Yama tries a few times and cries “sour grapes” or “sour carrots” and walks away.

Where are all these thoughts coming from? They all have to do with our recent visit to the top of Danothri (our nickname for Mt. Dana in Yosemite National park) after our recent trips to Gangothri and Yamunothri.

While Yamunothri was at 10,800 ft and Gangothri was at 11,200 ft, Mt. Dana is at 13,060 ft! We start the hike at 9500 ft! This group hike was planned much much earlier than July. Based on some advice by Sri. Sundararama Deekshidhar (not referring to myself as a joke.. he is my father’s favorite, who does Katha Kalakshebham and is related to Anantharama Deekshidhar) who recited stories last May at my fathers Subha sweekaram (rememberance), there were to be no risky hiking till my dads anniversary ceremonies were complete. We did climb a few mountains in that one year but did not take “risks”. So this one (with its label as a risky hike) was pushed to be post India trip.

Hotels, Driving logistics, food planning, everything was all set well in advance, and the whole group was looking forward to it. Then I ended up in the hospital. My friends were more worried about me making it back to normal and the hike topic was put aside. Did get discharged on a Monday evening and 11 days later we were supposed to be on our way to Yosemite. The rest of the group was suggesting I drop out or at least come for the drive and walk to the till the trail head and maybe go as far as I can go.

That is where the modern Savitri comes in.. Sangeetha decided that the fastest way for her hubby to get back to “normal” was for him to do all the things he is used to doing or supposed to be doing. Five days after discharge, I am signed up to do a 60 day yoga challenge! On day 7, I am hiking PG&E with the group to see if I can have any chance at hike Mt. Dana. Did PG&E without an issue but it was our backyard. There is no challenge as the terrain is so familiar, it is not high altitude and there is a nice trail. It was decided based on my PG&E effort that I will be joining the summit hike for Mt. Dana. They were all trying to be nice and encouraging. All of them wanted me to not miss out and I could tell.

We drove Friday evening to Mono lake area with a few short restroom breaks (all for me!) and checked into our rooms at the Lodge in Lee Vinning. We had a fantastic dinner watching the late sunset. We were also sitting outside to get used to the altitude and oxygen levels.

The next morning we started hiking from the trailhead at 6:30 AM. A group of 9 (We had a friend join our gang of 8.. even though he didn’t know the rest of the group, he fit right in!). A mile in, one of our group members made a wise decision to go back as it was not easy to breathe. We had come up a ~1000 feet at that point. Everyone looked at me, then San gave me a look, and I kept walking.

Three hours later, we were 1000 ft from the top and again some folks in the group had second thoughts and asked if I want to go down. This time I refused, having made it that far. Just paced myself, pushed through it and made it. Was very happy when I walked up to the top. Gave a short thank you speech (you can see it in the video)

Normally I never use nature for piss breaks but given the recent issue, had to stop a few times to water the bushes. One of my friends even said “let’s go.. you will have company. no need to feel embarrassed!”.

Mt. Dana is a hard hike because there is no trail in most parts. It is just gravel and slippery. There is also ice in places which you cannot really see. On the way down I made it fast. Coming down is somehow easier for me as I can balance well. For the hike we had all packed our own food. I had aaloo sandwiches, two Think bars and two Kind bars which turned out to be more than enough. We came back at 3PM exactly to the parking lot. My legs were shaking and walking in a straight line was tough.

Went back to our room and drank some Emergen-C and that helped immediately. Many of us had a sunstroke like effect when we were at the top. Three of us got severe headaches in just 20 minutes. So we decided to come down right away instead of eating at the summit. There was not much room to sit there at the top anyways! Had a much needed 90 minute nap before we decided to have Chai, followed by an early dinner. Dinner was more home cooked food. The rooms had fridges and microwaves. Dinner tasted great! Thayir sadam with mor-milagai can be amazing after you hike to the summit of Mt. Dana!

San was beaming with pride that I had actually listened to her and made it. I was also happy seeing her so happy. Currently we are having debates (not as serious as the Savitri-Yama debates) on this hike being the starting point for my knee swelling 10 days later, which has made me go back to the hospital. Or is it the fact that I did a few doubles in the Yoga room the following weekend to make up for the missed yoga practice during hikes, or was it walking around all day for two days at the music festival and making the knee worse? Given there is so many “assignable causes”, we have decided to look forward rather than look back and focus on getting the knee fixed ASAP! For the record, it is definitely better now after they drained fluid and gave a steroid shot in the knee, followed by four days of icing and rest.

Truth be told, I was happy that entire weekend hiking, eating, joking around, taking pictures with my favorite people. If anything it lifted my spirits up!

There are tons of photos.. so sharing them in galleries.

This first photo is a collage.. it starts off by San showing me everything I am doing wrong in the approach to the final photo, till she is kind of happy with the end result. Never before has this regular sequence been caught on camera so beautifully. The photographer here is not much different from San. Her hubby runs far away whenever she pulls her camera out. This is par for the course in our hikes for the hubbies.

The views of the landscape are just out of th world throughout the hike. We got to see a few birds, marmots, large spiders. There was absolutely no shade anywhere. The gravel was slippery. We did see a bunch of teenagers hike this with their parents and went “wow”!

A few pano shots..

Now for the galleries..

A video of the drive, the dinner and our hike to the Mt. Dana summit..

Moral of this post: One just needs the right motivation and the right look from the right person to do these hikes!

There was still time after our dinner and the sun hadn’t set yet. So we made plans.. that in the next post..